some night I feel the need to write, but I have nothing to say. This being one of those nights. I want to say something profound that will make you think about things in life. at least that is the kind of stuff i like reading, but tonight its only 10:23 and I am in bed. I cannot recall the last time I was in the bed this early. I am usually just getting my night started or not planning to call it for at least three more hours, but not tonight. Today my brain quit working at 7pm. I had pizza with the kiddos I am staying with, we played carpet ball and clue. Then about 9:30 we were winding down. It's been a week. I feel like I haven't had three second to breathe and the funny thing is-- everytime I go overseas, I see how powerful their time is. How much they value each minute, each hand shake-- I mean that literally, they will shake your hand for what seems like 4 mintues while they look into your eyes just humming. Its a sign of being in that moment fully. I promise myself everytime I come home that I will slow down and that I will enjoy moments more. Only to come home and get right back to the full fast paced life that I live.
The one where I run here and there and everywhere. The one where I sleep for 6 hours or less because I am 22 and I have previously stated 'you only life once'. Well guess what world, I am tired. I am 22, and I would love to be in bed by 10pm every night. I would also love to blog while I am sitting in bed just like I am at this very moment and next I am going to read for a bit and maybe even fall asleep whle reading my book. I like to be a grandma- it's fun and makes my brain not feel as crazy when I've slept. I enjoy waking up early and drinking coffee in my field. Sure, I want to hang out until wee hours of the morning, but sheesh I can't anymore. I want to write and take pictures of everything. && sometimes I just wanna sit at home and talk to Jesus while I clean and Tony Bennett's record plays in the background.
Find time for yourself folks.
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